Monday, September 14, 2009

Swimmer


Until a year ago I had lived by the ocean for my entire life. When I say near the ocean I mean within two miles of the ocean. I miss it.

I didn't go swimming all the time but I liked seeing the water and the smell of the salt air. This photo is of the Gulf of Mexico. September and October are the best months for swimming down in Florida. The water is still warm enough to be enjoyable but the temperatures aren't so extreme that you can't enjoy the beach outside of the water.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Driver.

I have what I consider to be a brand new car. Its a 2009 Honda Fit. When I got it there were 4 miles on it. The Fit was my first new car and the nicest thing I had ever purchased. One day it will be passed by a home but for right now its the most money I have ever committed to one thing.

Last week I was sitting at a stop light when I was rear-ended. Some teenager who cannot even tell me what happened hit the car behind me who then hit me. So far the insurance is taking car of everything and we have a rental car for the low price of two dollars a day (damn taxes). But I have no idea when the car is going to be finished and I really hope that everything is fixed to my liking. The insurance company is guaranteeing the work of the shop we took it too because its one of their authorized locations. So, if it is not fixed to my satisfaction I can take it back to that shop for the life of the car. But, that simple fact that should make me feel better doesn't. I simply wish that it hadn't happened or that the guy who caused the wreck had a believable excuse for why it happened. I'd be willing to bet that he was screwing around with his phone. But, I'll never really know.

Roof Riding.

Living with Gabe immediately after high school was an extremely drunken time in my life. I had no job and nothing to do except hangout at the skatepark or tattoo shop. I would hustle money in various ways. Mostly giving the squids rides to the base from the tattoo shop, making needles or selling whatever I had at the time. Considering my priorities at the time I am lucky not to have been involved in anything illicit.

I was having a wake-up beer before going to job interviews and completely wasting those peoples time. I don't think I would have taken a job if they asked me, but the way I behaved nobody was going to ask me. I had no direction and no one to steer me in any specific direction. I was living in the moment. Which means sitting on the porch until drinking until sunrise and then trying to scrape together enough gas money to get across town.

One of these nights, while almost through our first case of Yuengling, me, Gabe, and Billie decided to go to the mecca of Southern late night cuisine: Waffle House. If there is a Waffle House in the town you currently live you are truly blessed. Might I suggest scattered, smothered, covered, topped and capped.

Anyway, Gabe got behind the wheel, he was the that special kind of drunk when you are a better driver. Billie got in the front passenger seat, she's a girl and they always seem to get that privilege. While I decided that I would ride the 8-10 blocks on the roof of Gabe's early 90's Corolla. I was holding on to the sides where the windows would have been and facing the oncoming traffic like a spear flying in an ancient battle. The ride went off without a hitch. I don't even remember being scared.

However, when we pulled into the parking lot, with me still on the roof of course, there were two police cars parked next to each other. Immediately, we all thought that we were busted and were going to jail. But, the cops didn't even seem to notice us go by. They were embroiled in an intense conversation about whatever the hell cops talk about and they wouldn't have noticed if I was on fire riding on the roof of the car.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Lump Sums

My sister in-law is going through some bullshit with her baby's daddy. Right now I really feel bad for my mother in-law. She is probably suffering the most right now because of the situation. I never thought I would find myself feeling bad for my mother in-law, but no one deserves this situation dropped on their front door.

Found Money.

Most people whether they want to admit it or not have experience working in a retail store of some kind. I personally have over eight years of experience working in these various torture chambers of customer satisfaction. This is the story of the day I came into direct contact with more money than I would make in an entire year in one man's wallet.

I worked for Sam's Club around the turn of the millennium. Sam's is one of those pay to shop, membership required, big box stores where you can only buy 100 packs of paper towels and #10 cans of beans. For those of you not aquatinted with the #10 can, its the one that you imagine a cook on a navy vessel emptying into a huge vat of indescribable mush. I was almost twenty years old and going to college severely part-time and trying to figure out what I should do with my life so a job where I didn't have to try all that hard worked perfectly for me.

This day was the same as all the other I had worked previously until I walked outside for my lunch break. I didn't usually take my lunch outside of the store but it was a particularly beautiful day. Autumn in Northern Florida is a beautiful time. The rest of the year you'll die of heat stroke between your car and the stores front door. The store should have employed EMT's around the clock to keep the older customers from dying on their way inside.

While I was walking over to my car I noticed a wallet someone had left inside a cart. This wasn't a rarity at all people left wallets, purses and checkbooks all the time. So I picked up the wallet with the intention of putting it in the lost and found on my way back in from lunch. From this point forward I had the longest lunch break of my retail career.

I tossed the wallet carelessly onto my passenger seat and began eating my sandwich. After a few minutes of listening to "Car Talk" I noticed the wallet lying open on my passenger seat and I could see a very large collection of green. I immediately picked up the wallet and looked inside. There was almost $10,000 cash in this wallet. My thoughts went instantly to my last W-2 which had read "gross income: $8,324." This guy was carrying around more money that I made in a year. All one hundred dollar bills and all crisp and new. To say I was tempted to keep the money would be a gross understatement. I knew that no one saw me pick up this wallet and I new that no one would ever know that I had taken this money. I sat in the car staring at the money constantly thinking that I should keep it. The minutes dragged on and I assured myself that I would use the money for school or some other expense that was for the greater good. Like one day I'll cure cancer and taking that money will be forgiven.

I never looked at the ID. When it was time for me to return to work I simply went into our mangers office and turned in the wallet. Later, I heard that the man was a cardiologist down in our little beach side community on vacation and he had called the store several times to make sure that his money was safe and he would be back directly to pick it up. I never met the man. Not that I wanted a reward, but I think I would want to shake the hand of the person who turned in my $10,000 dollars instead of using it to fund his trip to medical school where he would have cured cancer. Later still, I had to suffer the embarrassment of being featured in the quarterly news magazine that the company put out so now not only did all the people who worked in my store know what a sap I was but everyone company wide knew.

To this day I don't know if I made the right decision. But, I'm not a thief. In a world of gray morals I guess this was my stand. Who knows what will happen next time I find $10,000 laying on the street.

Friday, August 28, 2009

Disease

I found out yesterday that a close friend has Leukemia. I'm pretty bummed out about it, but I can't imagine how he must feel. I would be devastated if a doctor told me I pretty much have a fifty-fifty chance of surviving a disease. There is no way of knowing how long he has had the disease. Its because of a freak accident that he even found out he has it.

I avoid doctors for this specific reason. I hate the idea of finding out something worse is wrong with me than what I went to the doctor for in the first place. I know its best to find most medical problems early, but it also seems that people that are going to die sooner would live happier lives not knowing that they are going to die.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Visionary

I love the movie "Goodfellas." I think that its Ray Liotta's best performance by far. Plus De Niro and Joe Pesci. Their best work together was in Casino but Goodfellas is almost as good.

I love the scene near the end of the film when Liotta is narrating and he says "The guy never knew how close he was to getting whacked." I think that scene is the key to the whole film.

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Pet Owner

This is our cat, Kera. I personally don't like the name but she was named when we got her and she responds to her name. I like having a cat. They are good for killing bugs and they typically don't need a lot of attention but they appreciate it when you give them attention. Dogs are a different story. I don't understand dogs behavior. I've always had cats so I know what they are going to do.

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Fan.


I have always loved the Transformers. The new movies that have come out in recent years haven't been that good but they haven't been that bad either. The first live action Transformers movie included quotes from the animated film and both movies have had the original voice actors voice the Transformers. Both of these things are simple additions that keep long-term fans of the franchise happy.

I don't know what attracted me to this series originally. It was probably the idea that there was absolute good and absolute evil. In the real world everything is shades of grey. Even if something is perceived as good here it would be bad in another part of the world. I'm not trying to make Transformers more important than any other cartoon, but I have always enjoyed it. Hell, when I was a kid everything I owned was Transformers themed. From my lunch box to my bed sheets. I've had a VHS copy of the original movie for my entire life. The tape is now so messed up that most of the movie is fuzz and the sound is messed up. Happily, they re-released the movie on DVD for the twentieth anniversary. You can't wear out a DVD by watching it too much.

Friday, June 19, 2009

Worker

I've been really busy for the last month.  I am thinking about taking this weekend off going fishing and basically just chilling out.  Research takes up a lot of time and I have a lot of research to do.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Math Student


I've never been good at math.  Mostly caused by a lack of effort on my part.  I never had a teacher in school that could reach me on the importance of math in my life.  I never expected to be an engineer so I thought that mathematics/liberal arts math was enough for me.  I was always content to do the minimum in math since I was in the tenth grade in Ms. Demonbrun's (crazy name, right?) Algebra class.  She would belittle students if they made wrong answers or suggested the wrong way to answer a problem in class.  This type of "teaching" made me shut down and all I would do in her class was read.  Eventually, it got to the point where she wouldn't even pass the work to me because she knew that I wasn't going to do it.  Nothing changed in college.  I never needed to take a high math for my major so I didn't.  Recently I have felt like I let an opportunity to understand an important part of the world had slipped by me.  So I purchased the book pictured and have been trying to go through a chapter everyday. The work has not been easy for me and I have had to ask for help from my wife, who incidentally went up to Calculus.  There is a big test at the end of the book and I think that I will be able to slay that dragon in the next week.  I'll probably have to go through the book twice before I can do all of the problems in the test.

Monday, May 25, 2009

Skatepark Employee

Deep South Skatepark opened in October of 1999 in Pensacola, FL and I spent pretty much everyday there until it closed in December of 2001.  I actually got a job at the park as an accident.  The owner, Paul, told me that the park was going to start being closed on Mondays because there weren't enough people coming to justify having someone working an entire shift.  So I told Paul that if he was going to close the park that he had to give me a key.  I started working there the next week.  Deep South was about an hour drive from my house and getting out there everyday was a chore.  When I started working out there I was a senior in high school and I had to start driving to Pensacola as soon as I got out of school.  There were plenty of days that I was completely exhausted driving down Hwy 98.  Honestly, after driving so much for so long when the park finally closed I missed that time when I could just be alone with my thoughts.  I know that it doesn't look like much from the picture but Deep South was a great park with a dedicated bunch of locals that kept things in line.  I am really grateful to Paul and Rhonda for opening the park.  I was lucky to be a part of it and lucky to be a part of the best group of employee's Paul N. Brian J. Cale L. and myself.

Pool Slasher.

This photo was taken in the aftermath of Hurricane Ivan in Pensacola, FL.  Anyone from northern Florida knows BC and this pool was at his apartment complex.  I don't know how he convinced the building manager to let us skate here but he did.  I was at work and Brian called me and asked me if I wanted to go skate a pool.  Yes, is the only possible answer to that question.  I was ready right then.  I could have walked out of work right then but Brian said the session wasn't on until BC got home.  The rest on my day at work was spend wondering if I would be able to carve the light or if this was going to be a bank to wall pool or if it was going to be skateable at all.  I drove straight from work to Cale's house to pick him up and then straight to BC's.  I was amazed that the guys were already skating and it was totally cool with everyone in the complex.  The only pools I had skated prior to this one were the type where you took one run a piece and ran like hell because the neighbor had already called the cops.  None of us in that group were heavy pool shredders but everybody got over the light and I caught some truck on the top of the tile.  This pool was available to skate from three p.m. to sunset for about two weeks and I was there everyday and excited as hell.  All good things come to an end, especially skate spots in NW Florida.  In hindsight I wish I would have told more people about the pool and had bigger sessions.  I was afraid that the more people we had out there the sooner the people who lived in the building would shut it down.  Skating a pool is loud and everybody was dealing with the stress of post-hurricane life.  Some people were getting evicted due to damage to the building and most did not have electricity.  So the fact that they let us have this as long as they did is even more amazing.  A nuisance that would not have been put up with in normal life is not even paid attention when dealing with such a large problem.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Movie Goer

Just got home from Terminator: Salvation and it wasn't all I expected.  When put up against the other big budget summer films that have already come out it wasn't that good.  There is no finality in the film.  The first Terminator movie came out in 1984 and this film does nothing to make me feel that they are trying to wrap this story up.  I thought that Christian Bale gave a good performance as John Conner but aside from that there isn't much to make me recommend this movie.
I knew this guy and his family when they lived in Pensacola, FL.  I think Sierra was about 12 or 13 years old so it makes sense that he didn't drink or anything thing.  But, knowing him then made me think it was totally possible that he would become a professional skateboarder.  I've never met someone that was more dedicated to spending 23.5 hrs a day on a skateboard.  One night my friend Paul and I were at a party and from the balcony we could see Sierra skating some terrible bench spot by himself in the middle of the night.  I am glad that he as loosened up a little bit and embraced the fun side of life.  There has never been a more serious 13 year old.  Sierra is a good dude that deserves everything good that he gets in life.

First.

I've been talking about doing this for a while.  Jeremy got me excited about the idea.